I don’t usually write about very serious things, but that’s the way it is now. These are hard times, you guys. I never imagined I could ever live through something like this. It’s hard, so hard. It’s frustrating and frightful to feel so powerless.

Some days are pretty good, other days are tolerable, and other days are depressing and I can barely drag my feet around the house to accomplish something, such as lunch or cleaning the cats’ litter. In those days I would like not to lift the blinds and just lie in bed all day. Preferably with a bag of chips next to me. But, of course, I can’t do that, because there are little people who need me. For them, I have to move on. And no matter how hard it is, I’m grateful. I don’t get truly depressed because of THEM.

However, I can’t help but think that there are weaker people out there who can’t control their negative feelings and hurt their loved ones. My heart aches when I think about how many people, especially women and children, are suffering right now. My opinion is that there is too little talk about it and much more awareness is needed. As for the epidemic, humanity has gone through the plague and the Spanish flu and many others, I hope we get through this ordeal as well.

You would think that in this situation there is time for everything, but honestly, most of my days are unproductive. After I finish everything I have to do around the house, I don’t feel like hobbying anymore. I am too tired. And I’ve heard others complain about it as well. However, sometimes I take photos, then I sit at my desk, open Photoshop and play with them, while my husband plays with the little one.

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3x mom . mrs . certified introvert . loves coffee, cats, plants, crochet, reading and photography, not necessarily in this order . allergic to ambrosia and rudeness

7 thoughts on “Uncertainty”

  1. Ramona..my daughter is a therapist in private practice which now only exists via video call. She says that people being frozen and unmotivated is understandable. It is mass trauma and fear. It’s ok to feel that way, but she encourages her clients and her Mother to add structure to the day. To meditate or practice mindfulness because it stops the little voice in your head for a while. I was stuck most of April. But being outside is helping and I am determined to notice everything about nature because that is the only certainty right now. Mother Nature keeps moving forward…Your photos are lovely…..Michelle

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  2. I do hope you find some motivation soon. I hope this will all be over and we can resume our lives. My life really hasn’t changed much with our lockdown, but I feel for those who have a need to be out and about with others.
    Your photos are lovely 🙂

    Feel free to share at My Corner of the World

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  3. It is certainly trying times. Everyone is effected due to this. Some are aware some are not and the degree varies as well. I keep time for myself and nature (Birding from the balcony and enjoying the sky, sunrise, sunset). The household chores do take quite a bit of the wake time but that’s how it is. We all have keep the positivity baton thriving. Have a cheerful week ahead Ramona 🙂

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  4. you express your emotions so beautifully. Your feelings are so honest. These are very difficult times and yes it’s hard to get hobbies on the go. I totally understand. I feel the same way so many times. We must stick together. We will come out stronger than ever. I feel that now more than ever we need to stick together, help each other, listen and express our feelings more. We need to dive into doing arts and crafts and photography and everything creative. stay strong my friend. We will get through these hard times. I’m here for you. Your photography and crafting skills are SO AMAZING. I wish I could do needle work like you. Love you! xoxoxo I might try learning how to knit. This could be good or go terribly wrong. lol

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